Truth Hurts

Subject: Truth Hurts Wed Apr 03, 2013 3:36 am

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Hey guys, I don't know how to say this, but I hate my life. Sure you would think that my life is cool or something. But the Michelle that you see or talk to isn't entirely the full one.
As you can see, I have bad traits. But I am just hiding it and I am trying to be nice, ever since I came here. And there, I made it. I became a good member and now a moderator that respects people, and being fair to staffs and members.

I don't know what you guys would think, but I hate my life. You just didn't know that. I always show myself as the happy one. But my life, in reality, its UGH!
Yes, to my friends here on BIW that became my friends in FB, you can see me happy right?
But no, my happiness can't stand still forever.

Now at my school, people hates me for I laugh really loud and they get annoyed. Also, I am the smartest in my class <=== Not Bragging, I am the only one who had a medal in my class, unfortunately. Sad

And now, we had an activity to renew our spirits, to be a good citizen, a good child, and a good student.
We were told to write to our parents, say sorry to all of the bad things we had done. And yes, I showed it to my parents, but I think its weird, because they didn't say anything to me after they have read it.

But I didn't think of it anymore, until one day, me and my mother had a fight, to tell you the truth, we always fight, fight about me not focusing, not being responsible, etc.

And until one time, she told me that I am growing up being a bad child. She told that I am a Big Liar. She told me that all I wrote on the letter for them are all lie.

That made me tell myself that I hate my life. I can't believe my parents thought that what I have written is all lies.

To tell you the truth, this happened awhile ago. If you read this late, I'll tell you the time.
It is April 3, 2013 at 10:28 am. That is the time I wrote this, and the argument happened 15 mins. ago.

Wondering what I told my mom? I told her who wouldn't be mad that she keeps on blaming me for all of the things that gone wrong, like why her papers are gone, etc.

Btw, we were fighting about Blaming.

I truly don't understand why she keeps on blaming me for the things I didn't do! I admit, I am a liar when it comes to some things. But seriously? The letter I wrote, it was from my heart. With all of my heart I wrote it. It truly hurts that they think that way.

I don't know about my dad, but for sure, my mom hates me now. She doesn't talk to me anymore.

ANYWAYS, I am truly sorry for posting this, I know, its too personal, but I am sure it isn't a good idea just to keep it to myself. I need to let out my pain.

If you want, you can just lock or delete this topic if it violated the rules.

^Be sure to PM me about the violation, if I have violated.

^^Sorry! I am too paranoid.

So, please don't hate me for being this real person. Thats just in reality, but since I came here, I tried to be kind here, and I have succeeded.

Thanks...

Subject: Re: Truth Hurts Wed Apr 03, 2013 6:21 am

Reading this makes me wanna cry. I'm sure your mum still loves you, and might have a reason for been so nasty to you. Maybe job problems. And for ignoring you might be because she feels guilty. I have a friend who has the same problem as you for school. She is hated by many and has a strange laughter. But now, people fight over her. Strange? huh?

Subject: Re: Truth Hurts Wed Apr 03, 2013 6:24 am

SwordArtOnline wrote:: Reading this makes me wanna cry. I'm sure your mum still loves you, and might have a reason for been so nasty to you. Maybe job problems. And for ignoring you might be because she feels guilty. I have a friend who has the same problem as you for school. She is hated by many and has a strange laughter. But now, people fight over her. Strange? huh?

Thanks Sophie. Very Happy

And maybe, she is depressed or something, but she is done with her job now. I heard that she ain't got any problems with her job. Maybe because of my behavior or something?
I agree that she may be guilty, I can't read her face though. xD
Woah, she is hated? then people fight over her? Truly strange. But I hope people will like her soon. Smile

Thanks for the advice BIF! Very Happy

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Hey Anne! I'm really sorry about what happened, but also know that you are not alone. Lot's of other people aree just like you, sigh, like me. I know how you feel, my Dad never goes on a week or a month without yelling at me severely and moan bad stuff about me, how I'm a horrible child, how I should act like a normal person for just one second, and stuff like that. People like us deserve something better, yet we can't get that. Honestly, if I put a label on this, it is called a verbal abuse. But I usually brush that off, because now with every single yelling my Dad does to me, I put it on a Point System book. AHaahah I know it sounds weird, but that's how I relieve my pain, when he gets about 5,000 points, I treat myself for a chocolate and stuff like that. I don't even know if he loves me, he probably doesn't. But I know that your Mom loves you, she may say that, but deep inside she loves you. Just give it time. Oh, and be happy. never let them get in the way of your smiles.

Here are some song references:
-Words can't bring you down (Beautiful: Christina Aguilera)
-Who says you can't be the best (Who says - Selena Gomez)

Be happy, smile, and be cheerful for your own sake. At the end of the day its not how they feel about you that matters, its how you feel about yourself.

Subject: Re: Truth Hurts Wed Apr 03, 2013 8:34 am

PrinceAbeash wrote:: Hey Anne! I'm really sorry about what happened, but also know that you are not alone. Lot's of other people aree just like you, sigh, like me. I know how you feel, my Dad never goes on a week or a month without yelling at me severely and moan bad stuff about me, how I'm a horrible child, how I should act like a normal person for just one second, and stuff like that. People like us deserve something better, yet we can't get that. Honestly, if I put a label on this, it is called a verbal abuse. But I usually brush that off, because now with every single yelling my Dad does to me, I put it on a Point System book. AHaahah I know it sounds weird, but that's how I relieve my pain, when he gets about 5,000 points, I treat myself for a chocolate and stuff like that. I don't even know if he loves me, he probably doesn't. But I know that your Mom loves you, she may say that, but deep inside she loves you. Just give it time. Oh, and be happy. never let them get in the way of your smiles.

Here are some song references:
-Words can't bring you down (Beautiful: Christina Aguilera)
-Who says you can't be the best (Who says - Selena Gomez)

Be happy, smile, and be cheerful for your own sake. At the end of the day its not how they feel about you that matters, its how you feel about yourself.

Woah, seems like we have the same problems. Sad

I understand you John. Smile

I am sure your dad will realize that, and he will feel guilty. For sure the time will come. Smile

Thanks for telling me that my mom still loves me. Very Happy

Also, Thanks for your advice John! Very Happy

Thanks also for the songs! Wink

I am sure it will make me feel better. Very Happy

Subject: Re: Truth Hurts Wed Apr 03, 2013 10:03 am

I'm sure she loves you. You know, Mich, I was also about to post on how bad MY life is. It's horrible. I cry about it all the time.

No one is the person other think we are on the internet. Smiling too much hurts, but not smiling can hurt others too.
I try to smile every time I come here because BiW is the only escape I have from the real, cruel world.

My mother and father love me more than anything else, but I have other problems, that I don't want to state. So you see, we all have problems. Life sucks really bad sometimes, but I guess we have to learn from others mistakes too, so that we won't make the mistakes when we grow up.

It's all for your betterment Mich, the tough things your going through life, is going to be what will make you a stronger and better person after. Trust me Mich.

Just don't let go of that smile of yours, because every time we see it, we smile too!

Subject: :) Wed Apr 03, 2013 10:32 am

Life is maybe really painful sometimes just don't mind what people say to you or what they do to you. Everything will gonna be alright guisse. Smile

I also feel the same thing but not with my mom its my dad who's a little bit nasty. Smile

Subject: Re: Truth Hurts Wed Apr 03, 2013 11:54 am

SophilixLivia wrote:: I'm sure she loves you. You know, Mich, I was also about to post on how bad MY life is. It's horrible. I cry about it all the time.

No one is the person other think we are on the internet. Smiling too much hurts, but not smiling can hurt others too.
I try to smile every time I come here because BiW is the only escape I have from the real, cruel world.

My mother and father love me more than anything else, but I have other problems, that I don't want to state. So you see, we all have problems. Life sucks really bad sometimes, but I guess we have to learn from others mistakes too, so that we won't make the mistakes when we grow up.

It's all for your betterment Mich, the tough things your going through life, is going to be what will make you a stronger and better person after. Trust me Mich.

Just don't let go of that smile of yours, because every time we see it, we smile too!

Thanks Livia, I understand you there. Smile

Sometimes, we really need to smile, even if we aren't happy Confused

I agree, we go through a lot of challenges to learn from our mistakes, we stumble down, but rise up again. Smile

Ok, I will not let go the smile of mine. Very Happy

I tust ya. Wink

Seems like everyone cares about my smile! xD

annalie18 wrote:: Life is maybe really painful sometimes just don't mind what people say to you or what they do to you. Everything will gonna be alright guisse. I also feel the same thing but not with my mom its my dad who's a little bit nasty.

Thanks Annalie! I understand you there too! I agree also. Smile

Yeah, we can't avoid nasty parents. Sad

But thanks for giving me the hope that everything is gonna be ok. Very Happy

And guys? I wanna say, my mom sometimes glare at me, after we fought. *gulps*
Nah, its ok for me, just that, its weird. xD

Subject: Re: Truth Hurts Wed Apr 03, 2013 12:50 pm

Michelle, life can be very hard, harder than everyone else can think about. Sometimes you just have to carry on. I also know what being neglected feels like. But if you see the opposite way, (I mean positive way), there's no one to bother you except you yourself. About your mum? I think it's better if you just wait for some days and then one day have a family discussion. Sorry for bad advice, but that always works for me. Smile

:roll: Well, have a good day.

Subject: Re: Truth Hurts Wed Apr 03, 2013 1:07 pm

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first of all, you didnt voilate the rules by posting this sweetie
you didnt gave out any personal information like real full name, Phone number.. etc so your good and btw you should never give out such info on the internet, NEVER Wink

this is indeed a very personal thing and i see you are very hurt
im so sorry! i hope you feel better soon somehow

as for the problems you have with your parents.... we cannot really help with this
but to tell you it will probably be okay....
though, id want to give you a little piece of advice.... try to be more of an honest person?
as you said you know you lie now and then.....
you have to understand parents can get quite frustrated with their kids when they realize they lie all the time or ''often''
you know

but from this point of view your mother is also kinda being unfair indeed
so all i can tell you for now is try to talk to her again and try to stay calm, dont yell ,. scream or cry
show her that you really mean what you are saying to her
and show her you can change, just don't lie anymore

lying is a very bad habit sweetie, start trying to think about that first Wink

Subject: Re: Truth Hurts Wed Apr 03, 2013 1:23 pm

Michelle,you are the most bravest,honest and committed person I have ever met right after what you have just said.
Many people are fearing that only telling about what's going on in their life is going to make it worst.. But keeping it to yourself IS what will make it worst.
Dear,Life has it's ups and it's downs... And no matter what we do we just gotta keep moving on and letting go of the past that haunts us.. Let's not worry about what people think about us.. But worry about how you present yourself to others.. Sometimes hiding your negative side will affect people on thinking that you're a perfect snobby braggy :roll: *cough* and that you think you're better than them.. Which will reflect negatively on you!
So maybe you just have to be yourself and earn people's trust by being you! Truly and honestly the one and only you!

Your mother has been treating you like that because you've been neglecting yourself... Treating yourself like a worthless idiot who does not know what to do in life... From my experience i suggest you sit down with your mother and start fresh.. Show her what you're made of and proof to her that you're worth everything,because it's you who decided what goes on in your life.. It's you who controls your life and it's you who's capable of changing and fixing everything that surrounds you and your life!
Be honest to yourself and to the others and start making your life of what you want it! Smile

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