OK guys you got me.

Subject: OK guys you got me. Fri May 02, 2014 9:21 am

OK people, I'm gonna keep this short and sweet...well hopefully cos you know how I could ramble on for hours.

Anyway, so I've been meaning to tell you guys, I can't come here often and I can't connect with you thru a social networking site. Can't meaning it's strictly prohibited. And I lied about it before...I promised people I'd contact them, maybe make an account elsewhere on the internet to catch up with them or keep in touch with them but here's the thing.

Y'all know I'm 21 years old. OK. I'm not the average or idk a ''normal''-let's just say, 21 yr old person. I was diagnosed with a disorder. And if you must know I had mental problems and anorexia in the past. Now my parents are very protective and also, I am obliged to follow rules as a result. We have policies. So, as much as I wanna come here a lot and put my actress hat on and pretend to be very jovial and happy-which I can't lie I oftentimes am-there are people who have it worse than me of course-but anyway I just can't do this often. My life's sort of a mess. I have lots to deal with and I don't wanna come across as a drama queen-in fact I have friends who have problems too that doesn't make any of us drama queens for wanting to put it out there in the most impassive way possible) but seriously I am a messed up person who just hides behind a computer screen and has created my own safe little world in an attempt to cocoon myself. So, simply put and to cut a long story short I really adore you guys but I'd like to distance myself a little bit. Call me what you will. Actually seriously go ahead I'm not a true friend. And sorry I lied. I still love all of you. x

Subject: Re: OK guys you got me. Fri May 02, 2014 11:54 am

Oh my gosh, you don't have to go through with this and post it here. It's okay, I understand you may have issues but who doesn't? We're not perfect, sane and honest people. As much as we'd want to be something we're not, it will never work out. So even if you may have some mental issues you shouldn't let that define you because you're still human.

If you think about it in this way, we're just random weird strangers behind the screen hiding from who we are because the real thing is too much for us to handle. That's the truth, but we shouldn't let it bother us. We all have different comfort zones and it's hard for us to get out it and experiment some more.

Nobody will ever be a perfect human, that' just us lying to comfort ourselves. You have to learn to be comfortable in your own skin. You can't let words define who you are as a person. You can't let actions define who you are as a person. You just can't because that's you being weak and giving up yourself to society.

You don't have to push yourself into do something you don't want to do. You have to be honest with yourself and then when you learn to be honest with yourself then you won't find it difficult to be honest with others.

Ignore what people say, they're just heartless jerks who are trying to "help" you by bringing you down, by making you think something is wrong with you. Only you can tell if something is wrong with you or not and then you either help yourself or you don't.

So Ylianne, no matter what act you put on.. you still have been a great friend. Even if it wasn't really you, that shouldn't stop you from becoming that person. It's called changing and nothing is wrong with changing who you are as a person. <3

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